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POETRY BY LAKE COUNTY ARTIST
PAULINE DENISE KEIL-STOCKER |
| All poetry this page ©Pauline Denise Keil-Stocker |
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teach me respect courage help me to search for others
I have become a willow from an oak I no longer bear acorns I now move with the caressing ceaseless wind Help me to move with grace
dear Lord I plead to search the ground for water
a willow I bear silence in the ceaseless wind I move without sound the strong old oak beside me Listens to my song
I move with calm forlorness I move with woman's sorrow I move I move
O wind warm spirit of the night begin in incantation my movement to delight
the sweeping ecstacy of my sorrow is music to my friend
the oak is hollow with age decay the poet has left her and come to swoon with me
I am the tree with long hair I've come to need it braided so I've summoned one who with the sun shivers in the solemn stern atmosphere of tranquility which I assume
I need love letters nailed to my spine the spirit of equilibrium between souls the exaltation mine
I can not read or write I go dormant with the night yet some sudden sound winds around my hair and delights in my long lonely form
I am down by the river away from the sea the woman who wears the water-worn rock tells me I am
a sister to the oak but yet another species I am a symbol of the river's flow and carry empty tidings
while the ocean and the oak took the woman from my shade to swim and grow from acorn and stone
yet I will teach her singing I will teach her song for down by the river she stayed and did no wrong |
white butterflies
with- that once contained feat
barefoot on a Dusty mountain trail butterfly through mustard
a hay seed has found
you've got to do better than this they reply saw him walk without imprint on the sand others placed a footprint on leaves on leaves as an indication to direct a book/a building become spoken a secret
renounces silence as a body broke from birth before now
sound as spoken before dawn yes we Howl response from an animal kingdom brought bullets from the human to bring that bear skin hung next to a mountain's lion's her young found within |
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All alone I am in order Alone I am beneath the stars I see form Natural beauty A lyric movement going from here to there In this gentle meaning this movement of mine I hesitate I want sound's repetition I want neat ordered rows of words I want a rhythm That is the beat of the pulse and the language becoming the silent breath
The in-going and out-going of life to- from life
We are bound by a sea of gentle knowingness As aware of me as I am of it |
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I sang the song of Spring that brought you home
The Voice of Spring as seen by
when we speak together of the word we've heard
when the spirit speaks and the refrain equates
to bring the poet and the pilot the plane and the poem home
to the embrace of the worldview
of what I know through you the master of this source the creative process
no inherent value lies in the past
there can be no change
ask one question answered by
absolute tranquility resides with the seasons of the source as change is seen in the world
we remain at one with the mystery
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you just stay there you just go home now what did we do before you were born that's right your children are ahead of you I'll try to show you I'll try to tell you
she fell in love here first
I believe it
I won't let you down I've never seen such love
he has it all under perfect control
I thought you'd like it if I introduced you to the Father of your future family first of all I love you
good-morning beautiful evening isn't it
you're just a small town girl who can do no wrong you see what people do there's nothing wrong with you you just love everybody
we married you at the first ring is this the tree you meant I love to see them fly don't you
I know what it's like it's like a bird goes to a tree to talk to the next tree there is no bird there to talk
dog barks tell her that's what it's like why would I want to start the song for you
birds fly in the sky through circles of rainbows
they're straight here they're very strict here a new one every three minutes
it's like when you're not here I'm not there
maybe it's like I like to see you there
writing poetry
I'm not sure that's what it is""""""""""""""""""""""""""
they're just thoughts write them down so that you won't have to think about them anymore
my thoughts are my own
dog barks I thought I might have a few more words with
her
how do you see yourself in society I'm a guest in your society I'm sorry I stood there
I won't let you down
that's enlightenment is like
we can tell when you're in love
it's nature's hymn to humanity
you're a musical prodigy
sing to me if you insist
I play music all around the world
how do you propose I want to know right now
will you marry me
will you ask me to marry you
do you want anything else played no |
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"some people only write one poem"
I watch myself beneath the tree where I bud bloom and begin to leave the shadow grows against the sun the conflict within has just begun
in search of release I go to the sea and join as she laughs at death's boundaries
I dive and I die drunk with dreams the sea's memory speaks to me
amid blossoms which quench flight's thirst
a chorus of colors that mirror the earth
the rythmic beauty the end of my quest
cosmically circles then leaves her request
listen to the chaos that birth be heard
in beating wings and the sound of the sea |
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The Unobtainable
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| The butterfly's throbbing heart when beating life's pantomine portrays a re-run cinema seldom understood a cloud's dewy softness reflects the earth's being as it caresses the shore- line bordering between twilight and dawn an eagle's flight piercing but true penetrates the origin of blue mortals exist in a zone of Love's life their observance of Nature's survival combats an instinct of destruction |
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Once I knew I dreamed the same the establishment of a rhythm between being and seeming the anguish released and room was given for continuity of self
I know what I dreamed a world strong in belief where freedom was given for love of another
it was a strange scene where what became was the prolonging of the search for understanding between ourselves and others
not an isolated homage to a solitary soul not the obstacles of a self out of control the boundaries are extended to include all that we've been to ourselves and each other
only in relationship can we meet and be met value systems and judgements do not register when we affirm ourselves as the other
we sustain each other in our way of knowing our consciousness permits a growing
when we arrive at transcendent shores the new landscape the new feeling the awakened belief
the burden the struggle the turmoil of self grows easy relaxed from the strain of projections one is real and relieved
we affirm this momentary being whose dimensions of eternity establish regions where the exploration is conscious
symbols guideposts of direction establish a map where archetypes emerge from the everyday dream
I venture near you yet the boundaries remain contact is established do we remain the same
emerging is a sight of what has been concealed
gently awake to what is here no longer what's ahead there is a yes to yesterday there is now a place to rest
there is time to gently am to be with ease to let go to allow the flow this is all Know this is all
astride the thought words carry me not isolated or withheld they stream in continuity
the image emerges the coherent chord in rythmn's time
dawn at the periphery where silence begins and chaos falls away I hasten to solitude where tranquility brings my steady stance
I read I write I register the search the curious know
not as much here or there not in-between coming and going I'm on my way out and this is how it feels
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| The crossroads entering my small home-town one in the direction of my heart the other toward the world I hesitate, then take my place in-between the two: neither coming or going I stay; free right where I am |
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AS A WRITER RETIRES I thought you'd like it if I introduced you to the Father of your future family first Stay with me in the Himalayas The art of love is a secret Shall you begin or me Welcome all enemies I love to read by candlelight I love to read by kerosine Maybe if I sang while you wrote Would "Silent Night" be all right? How is my 24 hour wife? Where do you write? Where were you? Why are you here? What's your purpose? I'm married to music What do you think of "Marriage"? You're a writer I'm a musician we'll get along all right. I'm sorry you're sick. I think you're ill because you fell in love with somebody like me. I'd better get well. That's right You made yourself well. You're a prolific writer. There's nothing wrong with the song. Speak mountain. How much do you want for her What if I gave you all the stars in the sky? No. They die They cry "The Unshed Tears: I've found him for you. I'm your best man. This is a secret I am your best friend. I left you love I won't let you down. Now Let's disucss our family problems How many children do you have? Are they happily married? How many children do they have? Write without us for awhile. Well what will we write about now we are here We're going to write about doubt and fear You go on and drink your beer after baling hay on a hot day tastes good it should That's the only way to make love to that woman let's climax that's easy after we climax we relax kick back and take it easy What do you have to do Move Where will you move I moved heaven on earth to find you I don't know how to tell you You draw flowers Yes I lover her and her I dreamed all night about her and her children How's she doing with God and humanity? I'ts Nature's Hymn to humanity Listen to us we are humanity cats cry birds die That's how I feel like buzzard bait I feel a sense of freedom I'm pack my papers did the papers burn did they become wet when given to the ocean I can't help but call it The Letter of Love Her last boyfriend was a fisherman He's going to ask you a question it's all right with me The easiest answer is no isn't it? Know sounds the same What did you want to know? I'll know every inch of you I have a calibrated eyeball He went to war and married the girl next door. What happened what if it happened to me I sang a song for every tree What are you doing on my mountain when you have one of your own My mountain may marry your mountain if that's all right with you |
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NO sounds the same as Know
woman it seems you're in love with me is that all that's wrong with her well sure that's all that's wrong with her what's wrong with him everything
oh that kind of thing
well it's better to live with out that man really
of course it is you don't want a man like that
you want a man like me see
I'm strong and healthy wealthy and wise beyond my years
yes I've stopped tears
before they were shed really well it's better we were wed dead
no
she doesn't approve of that he can do that he wants to talk to her after all well who do you want to talk to someone like you
oh you do do you
yes I do well you can't see me until I come to get you to take you away from it all
I don't want to go with you I have to take it all with me as well
you do
yes I do
what if I refuse to take you and take everything else instead of you and just leave you here bare
huh
what's that she's wearing she doesn't look good to me no me neither she looks like something the cat drug in
who was she talking to before she met up with somebody like me she met me in memory only a refrain someday I'll get back to this right now I have to get dressed on my birthday I'm glad you had your epiphany
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what do you ask the man who knows everything do you know the word synchronicity yes is it sound without form yes that's it exactly that's a quantum leap in human conciousness do you know the nuclear model we're the model couple that's when the positron leaps to the electron what do you want to know how do you see yourself in society I've seen everything you're an inspirational writer you write like James Joyce you're a genius in another culture you'd be a shaman what do you want to talk about we could do this all day what you have to do is to put your pen onto the paper we've both learned a most valuable lesson if it isn't on paper it's gone I agree I'm my own man you're my woman |
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| All poetry this page ©Pauline Denise Keil-Stocker | |||||
We'll continue our song there is a song through the rain its refrain reminds me of the one I love as a candle flame in a Catholic Church just a moment dear dormant footsteps are near near a chair with a cane a small round table covered with glass holds forgotten songs of someone's name who is sane it must be the word that scared me off no it was my breath that blew out my birthday candle with his voice of violence I wish I were dead over his dead body I sang without you what's the use as a hired hand sang into a yellow telephone there's nobody to talk to I'm celebrating the day I completed Cosmic Fire and found the words Agni Yoga I said it's cosmic consciousness he said yes at the climax cafe I thought you'd like it if I introduced you to the Father of your future family first while people talk to themselves and say they feel well they laugh while I write sounds around home while a workshop continues with a writer who spoke after a description of my life it sounds like music maybe if you sang it he says it's the disentration of a culture does he remember I remark quite casually it's the descent of the spirit I transmit my life to you I give it right back to you what do you write words just words you'll write on and then another one where did you leave off |
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